just as i am

1. Just as I am, without one plea,
   But that Thy blood was shed for me,
   And that Thou bidst me come to Thee,
   O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
2. Just as I am, and waiting not
   To rid my soul of one dark blot,
   To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot,
   O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

1. Just as I am, though tossed about
   With many a conflict, many a doubt,
   Fightings and fears within, without,
   O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

1. Just as I am, Thou wilt receive,
   Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve;
   Because Thy promise I believe,
   O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

~ Charlotte Elliott

My heart has been through the wringer this last year.  Even as God has heaped beautiful blessings, my struggles with anxiety and depression have worsened to extremes never seen before.  I'm so thankful that His love is never hinged on my performance in life.

My cabinet is full of supplements I'm currently taking (with the guidance of an amazing caregiver) to try to heal my body and mind.  After being accused of my struggles being a matter of faith or to gain attention, it has been a relief to find listening ears and people who are willing to walk this path with me and help me improve.  I want to be healthy for my girls, for Andrew, and for myself.

Music has been such a huge part of my life recently... songs can be so encouraging, empowering, uplifting, and comforting.  The song I shared above was one that brought me to tears of gratitude.  That I can always run into my Abba's arms, no matter what I'm facing or how weak I've become, for His comfort and love, is a truth I cling to as I journey through mental illness.  This is a story I never saw coming, but HE DID and was prepared to cherish me through every difficult step.  I may be so small, but He is bigger than anything I face.  What a beautiful Lord and Savior I have.


Many blessings, friends!