Monday, November 6, 2017

a bigger step

Where's the baby?

There it is!

Oh my friends.  In the last little-over-a-month since my last post, so much has happened!  Andrew and I met with a doctor (as I shared we would).  This was what we thought was our big "next step" towards growing our family.  Little did we know that as we set up tests and researched fertility drugs that a new life was already growing inside of me.  *tears!*  God has graciously given us the gift of our third child after ten months of trying to conceive (our only baby to be conceived within what is considered a "normal" range).

It has been an exciting, yet very stressful, time since we found out about this new baby almost three weeks ago.  Only four days after discovering I was pregnant, I started having (sometimes excruciating) abdominal pain.  After bloodwork to confirm the baby was growing the biggest concern became an eptopic pregnancy.  A week went by and the pain didn't leave, so we had a very early (5 1/2 week) ultrasound and not only were we able to see the baby forming so perfectly in my womb but also the heartbeat flickering on the screen.  <3  We have no clue what was causing the pain but it is mostly gone now.

We are now 6 1/2 weeks along and nausea hits pretty hard most days.  Today is a better day physically (which is the hard part of early pregnancy: you're miserable when morning sickness is there and worried when it isn't).  We are further along than we made it with Promise, so that keeps my hopes high that everything is fine.  We are already so in love and praying so hard that this child (nick-named Squirt for now) will be one we get to raise along with Rennie!  <3
Speaking of Rennie:  she's doing really great with the news.  I'm pretty sure she doesn't comprehend what "baby in mommy's tummy" means for her eight-ish months from now, but she loves patting the baby and is enamored with the ultrasound picture.

The white inside the black circle is baby at only 5 1/2 weeks!

Would you please join us in praying, dear friends?!  Baby is due in late June, so we have a long haul ahead of us (and TONS of coming before the throne of God with our petitions for health and safety for this life).  He hears our hearts and I know it makes a difference.  So excited to keep you all updated as things progress!  Being pregnant is a hard time for my physically, but very much worthwhile!  Thank you for sharing in our joy!

Much love to you all!!!!

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

the next step

"Today is a good day for a good day."
Spent the night in vivid dreams of being pregnant again. The best dreams are the hardest to wake from. My doctors appointment to start the journey of hopefully discovering why it is hard for us to have babies is one week away. Last time we scheduled this kind of appointment I got pregnant before I had to go. That didn't happen this time. It's frustrating. It's scary. It hurts to keep hoping that doctors and tests won't be our reality. It's hard when you have a list of beautiful baby names you might not get to use. But today (as I sniffle through the hard that is allergies) the birds are chirping and Rennie is here and tonight is date night and I am beloved. Even with all the ick surrounding it, this is a day made by God. It is worth enjoying.

~ my instagram six days ago

Tomorrow I see a doctor.  Honestly, I am okay with that.  I'm ready to start understanding more definitely what's up.  I'm nervous and, honestly, frustrated that it is needed for something that should be so "natural".  But I'm okay.  Not knowing has been really hard.  And I have the added distraction of Andrew's parents arriving on Friday, so there's something happy to anticipate.  

We probably won't learn anything new tomorrow.  It's just the next step to discovering more.  If I come to mind, please pray for the doctor and I to get along (I've never met her!) and for answers to come quickly.

Today I'm trying to hold onto the present: this rainy day with Andrew unexpectedly home from work.  Trying to focus on little things like dusting, cooking dinner, preparing the guest room, and Wednesday night Bible Study.  This day... and tomorrow... and all of the hard and beautiful days... they are all ordained by God and covered with sufficient grace.

"I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there was not one of them." (Psalm 139:14-16)

Have a beautiful one, my friends!


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

at the lake... outfit post

blue collared dress: gift from my mom, gray cardigan: walmart, 
dangly earrings: can't remember (they are an old favorite!), black sandals: walmart

Another makeup-less outfit post from me (this is becoming the norm, my friends!).  I so love the comfort of this outfit.  It was simple (very few pieces), yet I felt put-together for an evening outing during our vacation in August.  Yes, I am very late sharing this.  It feels appropriate though since the weather has yet to cool here and I am wearing a very similar outfit today.

I have fallen in love with dresses all over again since Rennie is nursing less often.  Back when she nursed every couple hours this would have been a difficult outfit (though the buttons would have kept it from the "impossible" category).  She nurses mostly just for naps and at night now, so dresses (with or without buttons!) are back in my wardrobe rotation again!!!  HAPPY DANCE!  This particular dress is very roomy on me, so I tied my cardigan around my waist in lieu of a belt; more comfy AND came in handy as the temps dropped. 

A question some modesty-minded ladies might ask is how do I keep my dress (especially one that hits right above the knee, which is the shortest I wear) from making things awkward while chasing around a toddler?  I have found a very simple solution for when my activities include more than sitting and walking:  capri (or even mid-thigh) leggings!  I have two solid pairs (gray and black) that go beautifully under any and all of my tunics/dresses.  They give extra coverage without being too warm.

Do you like wearing dresses?  Casual or formal or both?


Friday, September 22, 2017

autumn favorites

AUTUMN IS HERE!!!!!  It may not feel like it (we've had some unseasonably hot weather in Indiana this week), but it is calendar official!  This season is by faaaaaaaaar my favorite and I can't help but honor it with a post about the reasons why.

~  The colors!  I'm usually a fan of light grays, blues, and greens... but there is something so comforting about the colors of fall.

~  The decorations.  Again, though my home decor doesn't normally include items of orange, yellow, and red, this time of year is the exception.

~ Pumpkins!  Fake ones, real ones, drink ones, food ones...  ;-)  From sitting prettily on a front porch to blended in my coffee, pumpkins are a wonderful thing!

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

mamabird life {seventeen} and blog survey!

Mamabird life has been...

~ Little to no brain capacity for writing.  Hence my terrible lack of sharing here.  These pictures are from a family vacation we took a month ago.  Life hasn't slowed down since getting home.

~ Enjoying *some* cooler weather.  It was beautiful at our vacation spot in Wisconsin and the last couple weeks here in Indiana have been beautiful as well.  It's warming up a bit though... Go away, summer!