Friday, January 5, 2018

little life update

Happy 2018, my friends!!!  What a year 2017 was and the next twelve months are already filled with so much adventure for our growing family (the biggest change being the fact that our family is, indeed, growing!).

Weeks 8-13!  There's definitely someone in there.  ;-)

Pregnancy continues to be a "difficult blessing" for us.  My nausea is only somewhat under control these days with three daily doses of medication and I still feel nauseated almost constantly (actual vomiting has gone down from multiple times a day to once daily at the most).  Nothing else seems to be amiss though, so for that we are incredibly grateful.  Still can't feel definite baby movement yet, but hopefully I will start to in the coming month.

Rennie has been such a trooper with mommy feeling poorly and daddy gone for work most days.  She has struggled many days, but I'm still so proud of her as so much has changed very quickly in her daily life.  She has definitely become even more attached to Andrew through all of this, though we are still very much bonded.  <3

Christmas was a simple day at home to rest and enjoy being together.  Rennie's special gift this year was an indoor swing Andrew built for her.  She is OBSESSED! 

As this new year begins and I have no clue what physical changes lay in store for me, my goals are much more inward for the next twelve months and reflect some things I learned from being pregnant and postpartum with Serenity.  My goals are to:

Be kind to myself and others
Not compare
Be thankful
Cast anxiety on the Lord
Keep learning
Smile and laugh more
Slow down and rest when needed
Love openly
Pursue Jesus

AND have a baby!  :-D

What are hoping for and looking forward to in this next year?

Blessings, dears!

Monday, December 25, 2017

Merry Christmas!

Oh yes, my dear friends, I am alive and fully intending to update you soon on our life happenings over the last month or so. My huge excuse for the lack of posts is severe nausea with this pregnancy (resulting in many bedridden days). I am slowly improving now that I'm faithfully taking medication to help and can't wait to share pictures and stories from this crazy first trimester of pregnancy! Much love to you all!

Monday, November 6, 2017

a bigger step

Where's the baby?

There it is!

Oh my friends.  In the last little-over-a-month since my last post, so much has happened!  Andrew and I met with a doctor (as I shared we would).  This was what we thought was our big "next step" towards growing our family.  Little did we know that as we set up tests and researched fertility drugs that a new life was already growing inside of me.  *tears!*  God has graciously given us the gift of our third child after ten months of trying to conceive (our only baby to be conceived within what is considered a "normal" range).

It has been an exciting, yet very stressful, time since we found out about this new baby almost three weeks ago.  Only four days after discovering I was pregnant, I started having (sometimes excruciating) abdominal pain.  After bloodwork to confirm the baby was growing the biggest concern became an eptopic pregnancy.  A week went by and the pain didn't leave, so we had a very early (5 1/2 week) ultrasound and not only were we able to see the baby forming so perfectly in my womb but also the heartbeat flickering on the screen.  <3  We have no clue what was causing the pain but it is mostly gone now.

We are now 6 1/2 weeks along and nausea hits pretty hard most days.  Today is a better day physically (which is the hard part of early pregnancy: you're miserable when morning sickness is there and worried when it isn't).  We are further along than we made it with Promise, so that keeps my hopes high that everything is fine.  We are already so in love and praying so hard that this child (nick-named Squirt for now) will be one we get to raise along with Rennie!  <3
Speaking of Rennie:  she's doing really great with the news.  I'm pretty sure she doesn't comprehend what "baby in mommy's tummy" means for her eight-ish months from now, but she loves patting the baby and is enamored with the ultrasound picture.

The white inside the black circle is baby at only 5 1/2 weeks!

Would you please join us in praying, dear friends?!  Baby is due in late June, so we have a long haul ahead of us (and TONS of coming before the throne of God with our petitions for health and safety for this life).  He hears our hearts and I know it makes a difference.  So excited to keep you all updated as things progress!  Being pregnant is a hard time for my physically, but very much worthwhile!  Thank you for sharing in our joy!

Much love to you all!!!!

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

the next step

"Today is a good day for a good day."
Spent the night in vivid dreams of being pregnant again. The best dreams are the hardest to wake from. My doctors appointment to start the journey of hopefully discovering why it is hard for us to have babies is one week away. Last time we scheduled this kind of appointment I got pregnant before I had to go. That didn't happen this time. It's frustrating. It's scary. It hurts to keep hoping that doctors and tests won't be our reality. It's hard when you have a list of beautiful baby names you might not get to use. But today (as I sniffle through the hard that is allergies) the birds are chirping and Rennie is here and tonight is date night and I am beloved. Even with all the ick surrounding it, this is a day made by God. It is worth enjoying.

~ my instagram six days ago

Tomorrow I see a doctor.  Honestly, I am okay with that.  I'm ready to start understanding more definitely what's up.  I'm nervous and, honestly, frustrated that it is needed for something that should be so "natural".  But I'm okay.  Not knowing has been really hard.  And I have the added distraction of Andrew's parents arriving on Friday, so there's something happy to anticipate.  

We probably won't learn anything new tomorrow.  It's just the next step to discovering more.  If I come to mind, please pray for the doctor and I to get along (I've never met her!) and for answers to come quickly.

Today I'm trying to hold onto the present: this rainy day with Andrew unexpectedly home from work.  Trying to focus on little things like dusting, cooking dinner, preparing the guest room, and Wednesday night Bible Study.  This day... and tomorrow... and all of the hard and beautiful days... they are all ordained by God and covered with sufficient grace.

"I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there was not one of them." (Psalm 139:14-16)

Have a beautiful one, my friends!


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

at the lake... outfit post

blue collared dress: gift from my mom, gray cardigan: walmart, 
dangly earrings: can't remember (they are an old favorite!), black sandals: walmart

Another makeup-less outfit post from me (this is becoming the norm, my friends!).  I so love the comfort of this outfit.  It was simple (very few pieces), yet I felt put-together for an evening outing during our vacation in August.  Yes, I am very late sharing this.  It feels appropriate though since the weather has yet to cool here and I am wearing a very similar outfit today.

I have fallen in love with dresses all over again since Rennie is nursing less often.  Back when she nursed every couple hours this would have been a difficult outfit (though the buttons would have kept it from the "impossible" category).  She nurses mostly just for naps and at night now, so dresses (with or without buttons!) are back in my wardrobe rotation again!!!  HAPPY DANCE!  This particular dress is very roomy on me, so I tied my cardigan around my waist in lieu of a belt; more comfy AND came in handy as the temps dropped. 

A question some modesty-minded ladies might ask is how do I keep my dress (especially one that hits right above the knee, which is the shortest I wear) from making things awkward while chasing around a toddler?  I have found a very simple solution for when my activities include more than sitting and walking:  capri (or even mid-thigh) leggings!  I have two solid pairs (gray and black) that go beautifully under any and all of my tunics/dresses.  They give extra coverage without being too warm.

Do you like wearing dresses?  Casual or formal or both?