Friday, January 9, 2015

miracles forming

My hubby and I have been on such a journey, my friends, as we've endeavored to start our family. We prayed, we waited fourteen months, God answered, and then we suffered loss.
 We mourned, we prayed, and we hoped. We waited.
We discovered, we cried, and we prayed more.
 And we waited.
 We waited sixteen more months and by then it hurt too much to hope.

 And then, on Christmas day, we received a miracle.

God willing, Baby J will be joining us the first week of September!!!!
  God is amazing. 
 He hears. 
 He fulfills and He gives hope.

Today I am 6 weeks and 1 day pregnant.
 This is the day I knew I was losing my first baby. My world fell apart in one moment and it brought out a side of me that I'd always known existed, but was afraid to meet. She felt dead and helpless and hopeless. And she has stayed with me ever since that day.
God has been so gracious as He continues to work on her, love her, and revive her. And He is teaching her... teaching me... that He is good.

And I am so thankful...

~ thankful that this pregnancy feels different, for a queasy stomach these last few mornings that I never experienced last time
~ thankful for a doctor's appointment that will tell me more once blood-work comes back (they sucked me dry... seven vials and my vein was hardly giving anything during the last one)
~ thankful for the words of the doctor: "We ran another pregnancy test on you. It can take up to several minutes to get a result, but the nurse came out of the room almost as soon as she went in saying, 'Yep, she's definitely pregnant!'!"
~ thankful for the extra prayer-cover we have this time... for all of your incredible hearts who are lifting my beautiful baby before God's throne
~ thankful for the tears... because they mean I am alive! And where there is life, there is hope.

It still hurts and I am still scared... but God is good and He holds my child, knitting it together in a wonderful way. And He is forming me as well, through the excitement, the doubt, the victories, and the backslides. He is faithful and I am thankful. 

Would you please join us these next months in praying for the health and safety of our baby?  That it would stay strong and that my body would support this precious life?

I am so thankful for the beautiful prayers and support you, my dear readers, have gifted me in the years I've been writing here.  Your comments are priceless and I so enjoy being a small part of your lives.  I apologize that I have been so lax in updates, but as you now know, life has me a tad preoccupied.  ;-)

Much love and many blessings to you all!!!



Becca Anne said...

congratulations Rachel!!!! (and Andrew. :) I am SO excited for you both. Praying for health for you and your baby and peace.
These pictures are precious. You are glowing! :)

Anonymous said...

I'm just still sooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!

Anonymous said...

How exciting! Praying that you and your baby will be safe and healthy.

Adrienne Lehman said...

So happy for you and Andrew (and the rest of your family)!! Will be praying for you and baby :)

Natasha Atkerson said...

Yay! Yay! Yay!

Vicki said...

Congratulations!! I will be sure to keep you and the baby in my prayers.

Vicki Grace

Sarah Rega said...

(I tried commenting before but it never ended up showing, so I'm trying again)

Oh Rachel!! Praise God from whom all blessings flow!! Words cannot even describe how happy I am for you and your family! This post brought tears to my eyes! Please know that I will be praying for you and you're precious little one.

Anonymous said...

Hi Rachel!
Congratulations! I am now twelfe weeks pregnant. And a lot of times you where in my prayers. Hoping and praying it would come for you again. So happy for you! Greetings from youre Dutch reader! I will keep you in my prayers.
Love Sjoukje

Lily Marie said...

Praise be to the Lord!! :)
/sigh/, I know I never comment on here but seeing this post I just HAVE to say something. I've been praying for you guys and I am SO, so happy and excited that you have this new little precious life to care for and await. No one would be more loving parents. You two are the cutest. I'm just so thrilled and happy for you. :D and it's so comforting to know...that God knows. God knows what He's doing. I know you have definitely learnt that and I wanted to say that you're such a blessing & example to me. I'm so happy for you. So excited. :) And still praying!
In Jesus,

Anonymous said...

I am so incredibly happy for you!!! This is awesome! I hope all goes well!

A Restful Place said...

Oh, Rachel! I am so happy for you! I've been praying for you and checking your blog for this announcement! God is so very good! I will be praying for you!

Anonymous said...

Oh that is awesome news. The queasy stomach is a great sign and isn't it funny we can be thankful for something as miserable as that?? :-) Perspective changes everything! I've been there! Blessings on you guys in this new year! love, Elisabeth

Rachel said...

Congratulations Rachel!!!! I'm 10 weeks 1 day - and pregnancy is such a miracle, is it not!!!?? I'm so so happy and excited for you. Praying for you and the baby!!

Rachel Ledbetter said...

Congrats to you and Andrew! I've been reading your blog for about three years now, and while i can't say i understand the hurt of loosing a child, i do understand the fear you have. I've felt that fear the last few weeks, wondering if my own baby is healthy inside me. I'm 11 weeks and 5 days along. It's definitely a learning experience isn't it?!! Hopefully the nausea and fatigue haven't been to hard on you! I've hard time keeping up with dishes, but my doctor told me that my blood pressure has been dropping a lot. Hope you haven't experienced that! Praying you have an easy pregnancy and a healthy baby!

Laura said...

Congratulations, I am so happy that our Loving Father heard your prayers, this is such a blessing. What a wonderful new phase of womanhood you will be entering, enjoy every minute of it. I will be praying for the three of you. Hope you are all having a fantastic day.

Hannah Barta said...

I do not know how I missed this announcement! This is WONDERFUL! Congratulations, dear lady :)

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