miracles forming

My hubby and I have been on such a journey, my friends, as we've endeavored to start our family. We prayed, we waited fourteen months, God answered, and then we suffered loss.

 We mourned, we prayed, and we hoped. We waited.

We discovered, we cried, and we prayed more.

 And we waited.

 We waited sixteen more months and by then it hurt too much to hope.

 And then, on Christmas day, we received a miracle.

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God willing, Baby J will be joining us the first week of September!!!!

  God is amazing. 

 He hears. 

 He fulfills and He gives hope.

Today I am 6 weeks and 1 day pregnant.

 This is the day I knew I was losing my first baby. My world fell apart in one moment and it brought out a side of me that I'd always known existed, but was afraid to meet. She felt dead and helpless and hopeless. And she has stayed with me ever since that day.

God has been so gracious as He continues to work on her, love her, and revive her. And He is teaching her... teaching me... that He is good.

And I am so thankful...

~ thankful that this pregnancy feels different, for a queasy stomach these last few mornings that I never experienced last time

~ thankful for a doctor's appointment that will tell me more once blood-work comes back (they sucked me dry... seven vials and my vein was hardly giving anything during the last one)
~ thankful for the words of the doctor: "We ran another pregnancy test on you. It can take up to several minutes to get a result, but the nurse came out of the room almost as soon as she went in saying, 'Yep, she's definitely pregnant!'!"
~ thankful for the extra prayer-cover we have this time... for all of your incredible hearts who are lifting my beautiful baby before God's throne
~ thankful for the tears... because they mean I am alive! And where there is life, there is hope.

It still hurts and I am still scared... but God is good and He holds my child, knitting it together in a wonderful way. And He is forming me as well, through the excitement, the doubt, the victories, and the backslides. He is faithful and I am thankful. 

Would you please join us these next months in praying for the health and safety of our baby?  That it would stay strong and that my body would support this precious life?

I am so thankful for the beautiful prayers and support you, my dear readers, have gifted me in the years I've been writing here.  Your comments are priceless and I so enjoy being a small part of your lives.  I apologize that I have been so lax in updates, but as you now know, life has me a tad preoccupied.  ;-)

Much love and many blessings to you all!!!

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