about me

Where to begin???

I am Rachel.

I'm an artistic, traumatized, recovering woman in her thirties.  I'm quiet when uncomfortable and loud amongst loved ones.  I have a wonderful husband and two incredible children.  I'm a cat mama 3x.  I love to sing, dance, read, watch movies/tv, and learn.

For those who've read this blog many moons ago... it's only fair to tell you that I'm also now a liberal atheist.

I know, crazy.

How did modest fashion, first kiss on her wedding day, trad wife, young mom, Jesus first Rachel become who she is today?

Short answer:  I woke up.

Long(er) answer:  I didn't realize I was deconstructing till several years into the process.  I finally left the church when I could no longer live out my own strong morality in that space.  I fully intended to return when I found the right place to worship.  I didn't set out to leave religion entirely.  But through much-needed education, meeting amazing humans with different backgrounds, growth, tons of fear and crying out for answers... I realized that religion no longer held value for me and that I was, in fact, a better human without it.

Some things remain the same...

• I am a daydreamer.  I am a reader and thinker who also enjoys movies and TV shows.  I find windblown hair most becoming.  I love big windows, sunbeams, rainfall, starlight, and thunderstorms.  I am a whimsy-seeker and anxiety/depression-wrestler.

I am a free-flyer.  I feel deeply.  I'm an outgoing introvert.  I am weird, nerdy, honest, random, and growing.

I'll be leaving up my old blog posts (at least for now).  They are a part of my history.  They are the cautionary tale of a brainwashed girl who was doing her best and knows better now.

If you want to get to know CURRENT Rachel better, find me on Instagram: @awildrachel_